Thursday, October 31, 2013

“There’s Something Inside of Me”: Coming Out As A Gay Horror Fan

My transition from scared kid to die-hard horror devotee was a lot like coming out of the closet. As it turns out, I’m not the only gay man who feels that way.



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"What kind of faggot runs around in a Christmas sweater?"


Those words weren't spoken to me, but they stung just the same. In Freddy vs. Jason, 2003's long-awaited Nightmare on Elm StreetFriday the 13th crossover, Kia (Kelly Rowland) taunts Freddy Krueger (Robert Englund) by mocking his weapons, his outfit, and yes, his sexual identity. Long after she's macheted by Jason, her slur lingered in my head. Was Freddy queer?


That might explain some things. As a child, there was no movie monster more often on my mind than Freddy Krueger. I was repulsed by him — too terrified by the mere concept to watch A Nightmare on Elm Street or any of its sequels — but I was drawn to him all the same. I remember browsing the "Horror" section at Blockbuster, regarding the box art for the Nightmare films with a sort of breathless anxiety: Would I ever be ready to follow through and rent one?


By the time Freddy vs. Jason came out, I was almost 17. I wasn't entirely out, but I'd told friends and maintained a healthy number of crushes on straight classmates. I'd also been called a "faggot." There was something so abhorrent about Freddy Krueger being cut down with the same word, not because it's inherently offensive, but because it aligned us in a way I'd never let myself consider.


There was something different about Freddy, and it wasn't that he was a dead child murderer who returned to kill new victims in their dreams. What scared me more than his burned face and knife-fingers were his winks and sass. He was so out there — and it looked like he was having fun. It would be silly to say Freddy frightened me because I saw myself in him: As a teenager, I was nowhere near that snarky. But I felt a connection, however subtle, and it's something that took me years to articulate.



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"In many ways you could argue that Freddy is essentially a drag queen," filmmaker Joshua Grannell told me. "He had the bitchiest quips. He had the most fantastic accessories. His makeup was over-the-top. I'm not trying to reach too far here. For me, there's a big connection."


And Grannell knows drag: He's the man behind the drag persona Peaches Christ, San Francisco's queen of midnight movies — a sort of queerer Elvira, if such a thing is possible. Grannell is also the writer and director of the drag slasher film All About Evil, which is how we met. I was an extra for one very long weekend.


I contacted Grannell and other gay men I consider horror aficionados to get a better handle on a question I've mulled over for years: Why do gay men love horror? I remember my transition from a kid too fearful of boogeymen to sleep with the lights off to a gore fiend who gleefully looks for any excuse to bring up Halloween in casual conversation. And in many ways, I liken it to my experience coming out: Both involved first coming to terms with my identity, then abandoning fear, and finally sharing it with the world.


It turns out, I'm not alone. While investigating, I reached out to Jeffery Self, co-screenwriter and star of the upcoming queer horror film You're Killing Me . Like me, Self has always been attracted to horror but had kept himself from watching it because he was, in his words, "really anti–getting scared." And again, there was likely something deeper going on.


"We, as gay men, gravitate toward things that are over-the-top, I think because our conditions growing up are heightened, in that we're holding on to all these secrets a lot of times," he told me. "So the idea of something that's even more heightened in the world of a horror movie is exciting."


Exciting, yes — but also terrifying. There is a taboo to liking horror, to seeking out images of gore and violence, but perhaps more importantly, to finding something relatable about a psycho killer. And yet, for many gay men — myself included — there's a vague kinship felt with quiet loner Michael Myers, eccentric weirdo Freddy Krueger, and deranged mama's boys Jason Voorhees and Norman Bates.




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15 Slightly Disconcerting Things About Being An American In London

Dear London: Just fix all of these things before my next visit. (Oh, and get some express trains while you’re at it.)


The size of British money.


The size of British money.


You notice something? Your bank notes are entirely too big for a normal wallet.


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Volts.


Volts.


We just want to charge our stuff, please don't bring joules into this.


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24 Movie Scenes That Will Make You Hungry

WARNING: Do not read if you haven’t eaten yet.



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Anytime they eat in Defending Your Life.


Anytime they eat in Defending Your Life .


Since the characters are in a purgatorial city of sorts waiting to go to Heaven, all the food they eat is supposed to be the best they ever had.


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23 Inspirational Signs From The Church Championing Gay Marriage

Gosford Anglican Church brings you the Word of God. Religion with a twist.


An Australian church is ruffling feathers.


An Australian church is ruffling feathers.


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The snappy signs have won Gosford Anglican Church thousands of Facebook likes.


The snappy signs have won Gosford Anglican Church thousands of Facebook likes.


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They're the work of Gosford's Father Rod Bower.


They're the work of Gosford's Father Rod Bower.


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Rod channels the Word of God.


Rod channels the Word of God.


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21 Signs Your Cat Thinks It's A Human

Ha! It thinks it’s people!


Your cat thinks he can play the piano.


Your cat thinks he can play the piano.


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Your cat likes to sleep in your bed.


Your cat likes to sleep in your bed.


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Your cat likes to climb on top of your electronic devices, as if he knows how to use them.


Your cat likes to climb on top of your electronic devices, as if he knows how to use them.


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Your cat likes to try people food.


Your cat likes to try people food.


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13 Times When Tumblr Wished For Something That Already Existed

Tide's Halloween Vines Are Fun

Nice use of the app, tagged with a perfect copy line.


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24 Quotes That Will Inspire You To Write More

From J.K. Rowling, Ray Bradbury, Maya Angelou, and a bunch of other people who know what they’re talking about. NaNoWriMo, anyone?




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Goosebump-Tacular NBA Video Sees Into The Future

“If it can be seen, can it be done?”


TNT just debuted a new promo video, showing the "future" of the NBA, which includes LeBron starring in the dunk contest, Kobe retiring, Derrick Rose breaking the Bulls' scoring record, and much, much more, like...


The Oklahoma City Thunder becoming champs.


The Oklahoma City Thunder becoming champs.


James Harden winning the MVP award.


James Harden winning the MVP award.


The beginning of a new dynasty in Los Angeles.


The beginning of a new dynasty in Los Angeles.




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The FAA Will Finally Allow You To Use Electronic Devices During The Entire Flight

And Alec Baldwin rejoiced.



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The Federal Aviation Administration (FAA) announced Thursday that it will relax the current guidelines on portable electronic devices so that passengers will be able to use certain devices during takeoff and landing.


In a press release, the agency said that it has given airlines guidance on how to best implement the new standards. "Due to differences among fleets and operations, the implementation will vary among airlines, but the agency expects many carriers will prove to the FAA that their planes allow passengers to safely use their devices in airplane mode, gate-to-gate, by the end of the year."


With "very limited exceptions," the FAA said, "Passengers will eventually be able to read e-books, play games, and watch videos on their devices during all phases of flight." The agency spent nine months consulting aviation experts, pilots associations, airline experts, and mobile technology manufacturers before they came to this decision.


Here are the "Top Things Passengers Should Know About The Expanded Use Of PEDs On Airplanes," according to the FAA:



1. Make safety your first priority.


2. Changes to PED policies will not happen immediately and will vary by airline. Check with your airline to see if and when you can use your PED.


3. Current PED policies remain in effect until an airline completes a safety assessment, gets FAA approval, and changes its PED policy.


4. Cell phones may not be used for voice communications.


5. Devices must be used in airplane mode or with the cellular connection disabled. You may use the WiFi connection on your device if the plane has an installed WiFi system and the airline allows its use. You can also continue to use short-range Bluetooth accessories, like wireless keyboards.


6. Properly stow heavier devices under seats or in the overhead bins during takeoff and landing. These items could impede evacuation of an aircraft or may injure you or someone else in the event of turbulence or an accident.



7. During the safety briefing, put down electronic devices, books and newspapers and listen to the crewmember's instructions.


8. It only takes a few minutes to secure items according to the crew's instructions during takeoff and landing.


9. In some instances of low visibility – about one percent of flights – some landing systems may not be proved PED tolerant, so you may be asked to turn off your device.


10. Always follow crew instructions and immediately turn off your device if asked.



Which means that we, the long-suffering air passengers, can at long last read our iPads during takeoff and landing. A glorious new era of ignoring our flight attendants has dawned!


Which means that we, the long-suffering air passengers, can at long last read our iPads during takeoff and landing. A glorious new era of ignoring our flight attendants has dawned!


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19 Reasons Cory And Shawn Were The Most Important Couple On "Boy Meets World"

Yeah, yeah, Topanga, blah blah. Cory and Shawn were meant for each other.


Because even from the beginning everyone knew they were perfect for each other.


Because even from the beginning everyone knew they were perfect for each other.


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Because Cory could always rely on Shawn when everyone else fell through.


Because Cory could always rely on Shawn when everyone else fell through.


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Because Cory wouldn't let Shawn go.


Because Cory wouldn't let Shawn go.


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Because they could barely be apart from each other.


Because they could barely be apart from each other.


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Sorry, But This Will Ruin Haim's "The Wire" For You

Or it might actually make you love it more. Either way, once you hear this, you can’t unhear it.


Haim's song "The Wire" is one of the best songs of 2013. It's just a fact.



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But hmmmmmmm. That opening line...something about it sounds so familiar.


But hmmmmmmm. That opening line...something about it sounds so familiar.


Do you want to know what it is?


Do you want to know what it is?


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Are you sure?


Are you sure ?




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Toronto Police Have The Rob Ford Crack Video

Chief Bill Blair said Thursday in a news conference that police have obtained a video of Mayor Ford that is “consistent with what has previously been reported in the media,” and he is “disappointed” in what he watched.



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After Gawker and the Toronto Star revealed the existence of a video earlier this year of Toronto Mayor Rob Ford allegedly smoking crack cocaine with drug dealers, Ford fired back, stating that there absolutely was no video.


Toronto Police Chief Bill Blair said today that there is, in fact, a video.


In a news conference Thursday, Blair said his department has obtained a video featuring Mayor Ford that is "consistent with what has previously been reported in the media."


Blair would not divulge what he saw when he watched the clip, but he did say he is "disappointed" in its content.


The video was seized by Toronto PD on Oct. 29 during a forensic investigation of a hard drive related to the case, Blair said.


A 476-page warrant was released to the media Thursday detailing the charges against Ford friend and driver Sandro Lisi, who police are charging with extortion.


Blair says the video will be presented in court.


The documents released today contain surveillance photos of Ford and Lisi together.


The documents released today contain surveillance photos of Ford and Lisi together.


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Toronto police launched the investigation into Ford following the allegations that video of Ford smoking crack exists.


Toronto police launched the investigation into Ford following the allegations that video of Ford smoking crack exists.


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If Disney Princesses Had Normal-Size Eyes

Forget hair. Disney princesses gave me unrealistic expectations of eyes.


Ariel


Ariel


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Jasmine


Jasmine


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Watch Kristen Stewart Make Robert Pattinson And Taylor Lautner Laugh On The "Twilight" Set

She’s a really good sport, you guys. Exclusive video!


In these exclusive outtakes from the new Twilight Forever: The Complete Saga Blu-ray (out Nov. 5), Kristen Stewart demonstrates the hardship of working constantly with two kinda doofy dudes.


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All Kristen wanted to do was talk through the scene, and Robert Pattinson makes fun of her.


All Kristen wanted to do was talk through the scene, and Robert Pattinson makes fun of her.


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Taylor Lautner especially thinks it's hilarious!


Taylor Lautner especially thinks it's hilarious!


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But good sport that she is, Kristen just plays along.


But good sport that she is, Kristen just plays along.


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Ellen Degeneres Has Won Halloween With Her Nicki Minaj Costume

Bravo Ellen, bravo!


Is that Nick — OMG IT'S ELLEN.


Is that Nick — OMG IT'S ELLEN.


And she couldn't get enough of her new boobs:


And she couldn't get enough of her new boobs:


Like, really couldn't get enough.


Like, really couldn't get enough.


The outfit was based off this Nicki Minaj outfit from when she was on Ellen's show:


The outfit was based off this Nicki Minaj outfit from when she was on Ellen's show:




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